Who am I ? Where do I belong ?

"Mrs.", She would be soon addressed A constant dilemma about how much more and how little to open up Fear of being accepted Fear of criticisms Resistance to change her dressing Could she ask for the extra piece of her favorite chocolate cake? Would her new parents love her as much as her biological parents? Would his siblings play cards the same way with her? Would his neice and nephew kiss her the same way they kissed their uncle? Would he be patient enough to let her accomplish her career goals before her societal responsibilities? Would he laugh with her friends? Would she ever get a chance to go back to the beach with her girlfriends ? Would there be a secret love letter inside her bag? What if his favorite dish she learnt for him had sugar instead of Salt? Ah, those little black dresses! Would she ever wear them again?" " It's important for a woman to be financially independent", she remembered Priyanka Chopra's words , and asked herself if there would be a need to ask him money. Money to even remove the extra hair growth around her eyes. " Don't spend money unnecessarily", her mother shouted from the kitchen. Should she spend cuz it was wedding that she wanted only once in her life or should she not spend, cuz it was not necessary? Was there a need for her to shed those extra pounds to be not made fun of it the new family? What if she wouldn't be allowed to go to her mother's house when she missed her? Would they be kind enough to thank her family for organising the wedding to the best of their capability? Would they taunt her for not wearing extra grams of glittery metal or for not gifting him stones from Russia? Would she be humiliated for not giving the saree his tenth aunt wanted? Was it right to have those intimate moments against her wish just because he demanded for it? Would her career dreams be destroyed due to the unexpected new life between them? Would he buy her favorite chat and ice cream just the way her dad got her? Could she just bump into the kitchen and grab food when she was hungry just the way she did for a quarter century? Was there a need to understand all his likes and dislikes in her transition phase? Was it necessary to change her surname as that was the only way to be identified as her Daddy's princess? Would she be asked to tweak her natural process of what made her a woman just to have fun? What should've been more important to her? Spending time in understanding him who would be for the rest of her life or so spending time with her mom with whom she wouldn't be so spending time like that ever again? Would she be criticized for wearing her favorite peach dress? Would she be allowed to talk to her girls over the phone late night? Would it be a permanent good bye to the guys in her friends list? All that she kept asking herself was"Who am I?, Where do I belong?"